happie days..

hmmm..

one of my biggest weakness makes its appearance once again. knew about this weakness of mine since sec sch days. had a hard time coping with it and sadly, i had not corrected it. yet. my weakness of giggling or laughing during presentations. i don't know what's wrong with me. in fact, i don't understand it at all. I mean i should be so nervous until i'll blank out. but why is it that i will laugh??!!! i hate it a lot. really. perhaps laughing is a way of getting me less nervous. i felt so bad after the whole presentation. in fact, i think i did the worst. but well.. i still think i can improve and do a much better job. but just that for now.. i need to pick up my confidence again. my mum always says i'm not serious or act in a mature manner and I'm always very defendant of myself. perhaps she's right after all.

i don't want to giggle or laugh during my presentation. i don't want to be not able to look at pple smiling at me (cause i will definitely laugh if i do so). i'm still thinking hard on what to do. demoralise now.. a little.. but will be alright soon..

well.. it's just the first day.. don't think too much i guess.. but well.. it's not easy to lead huh..

posted by shirley @ 10:22 PM